High School

I've heard many stories about gay oriented Mormon who were bullied in high school, or otherwise have had terrible experiences during that period of their lives.  I so feel for these folks, and want to go back in time and be their friends, support them through that period of their lives.  It was so different for me.
I wasn't exactly mister popular, but I had lots of friends and support from those around me.  The rare bullies that tried to invade my happiness were quickly subdued by common acquaintances.  I loved my time in high school.

That being said, I did have crushes on male classmates, and kept them to myself.  I dated girls, but never was really attracted to them.  I did feel guilty that I couldn't stop myself from being infatuated with guys.  But that didn't really affect my relationships with others.  I wouldn't remember my guilt when I was animatedly talking to friends, even those who I found attractive.

I felt a wave of guilt when I had interviews to go do temple baptisms, sometimes.  I never had to answer any of the questions in a way to be refused a recommend, but I would feel like there was unworthiness that was left undisclosed.  That also faded quickly, as my attention shifted.  I loved my experiences in the temple with other youth.  I had a very happy childhood.  That sometimes makes it hard for me to fully understand what others in my situation experienced.  I need others to share their experiences so that I can better understand them.