I did not grow up with a tendency to recognize peer pressure. I certainly had friends, and got along with others. I cared what others thought of me. But I wasn't prone to the kind of peer pressure that most kids go through. I think that helped me deal with my own differences. I sometimes felt like there was nobody that was like me, that I was all alone. More often I realized that there must be others, possibly many others, but I would probably never get to know who they were.
Anyway, I think the extent of my feelings of peer pressure was that I didn't want others to misunderstand me. So I couldn't tell anyone about my orientation, primarily because I knew that others tended to have serious misconceptions about homosexuality. They would fail to understand me, and that seemed to be the worst thing ever. I still feel that way somewhat. Being misunderstood is one of my greatest fears. But I've got to think peer pressure is different for most other people.
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